It is a new year and a new beginning for me.
I moved into a new apartment middle of December. It is a one 1 bedroom apartment, just for me. I am loving it! It is nice knowing that the mess I am cleaning up is MY mess. I found a really nice deal on this apartment and I couldn't pass it up and it just seemed right to move at the time. I looked at the place on a Friday night, thought and prayed about it over the weekend and I think it was by Tuesday the papers were signed and I was in that weekend. I was blessed to have people from the family ward where I used to live come and help move my stuff. I was all moved in in about 2 hours.
I have had a hard time since Grandpa died. I have had a lot of regrets. I should've called him more, seen him more, etc. I don't think I tell my family enough how much they mean to me. I hope they KNOW how much they mean to me. But I know I don't tell them or show them the way I should. I talked to Grandma this past Sunday before I went to church (yes, I went to church) and it was really good for me. I told Grandma how I much I miss Grandpa and how I do regret not calling him more. Grandma said that Grandpa doesn't want me to feel that way. He loved me so much and he was so proud of all his grandkids. I know Grandpa was proud. Grandma said that as grandkids, we have a lot of good memories of Grandpa and we need to remember those. She challenged me to write those memories down and to always look back at them. Not a day goes by that I don't think of Grandpa. I don't know who out of my cousins/family read this, but I want to pass that challenge on to the rest of my family.
I want to let my family know how much they mean to me. They have been a great support to me. I know that since I am the youngest, I can be a brat.. I admit that... But, I am going to work on that. I want Barrett, Tammy and Nancy to know and to pass on to their kids how much I love each of them. I know I show it differently but I want the kids to know that each one means so much to me and they mean something different. Each kid has their own personality and each has their own need and I am going to try to help them with that need. Please be patient with me. If I am showing it wrong, please let me know but please understand I am very sensitive and I am a Ware girl and I cry! :)
I will be better at posting on this, not just on birthdays! :)
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Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas! I hope everyone had a good christmas! I was not able to go home to Orangeville for Christmas. I had to work yesterday (FedEx delivers on Christmas so I was still working) so I stayed up in Salt Lake and due to the weather, I didn't want to risk anything. FedEx was soooo slow yesterday that we did nothing at work until they delivered at 1 yesterday so we started working at about 1:30. After work, I went over to Tammy's and I watched THE NIGHT THEY SAVED CHRISTMAS with the kids. We got the webcam all set up and we talked with mom and dad and the Browns. It was fun. Koy had fun talking to "NaNa" and Kayden just liked to see himself in the camera :)
Santa did make it to my house :) I got a nice Columbia coat. I needed a new winter coat since we have been getting non-stop snow here. Thanks for the gifts everyone. I got a $50 gift card toward southwest airlines from the Browns and a necklace, a digital picture frame from the Gales, and a gift card for iTunes from the Labrums. Lexi was also so thoughtful and bought me a gift from a store they had at her school.
I woke up and went to Tammy's and spent the morning with them. It is always so much fun watching little kids get so excited over the gifts Santa bring. Koy kept bringing me his gifts to open for him because he just couldn't do it. I hope everyone liked their gifts from Aunt Nicky :) I tried to do my best but it is really hard to get things when the family is so spread apart.
I am being honest, this Christmas was really hard for me. Since I was alone, it was hard. Last weekend, I did have a breakdown and I cried to dad. I really wanted to go home or at least be with mom and dad. But with this weather, I completely understand. We didn't wake up to any new snow but down in Emery they did. It has been blowing really hard all day and the storm is coming in. My new coat is working great!:) I really appreciate the Gales letting me spend christmas morning with them. I even took my nap there and I loved having Koy come and cuddle with me and he ended up falling asleep with me (I love having my little snuggle-muffin by me sleeping). I have been really emotional this christmas so all the gifts helped out knowing that people care about me. I didn't like working on Christmas Eve.
I am glad I was able to talk to all the kids today! Knowing they are happy makes me so happy! I love them all so much! I miss all of you so much!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Santa did make it to my house :) I got a nice Columbia coat. I needed a new winter coat since we have been getting non-stop snow here. Thanks for the gifts everyone. I got a $50 gift card toward southwest airlines from the Browns and a necklace, a digital picture frame from the Gales, and a gift card for iTunes from the Labrums. Lexi was also so thoughtful and bought me a gift from a store they had at her school.
I woke up and went to Tammy's and spent the morning with them. It is always so much fun watching little kids get so excited over the gifts Santa bring. Koy kept bringing me his gifts to open for him because he just couldn't do it. I hope everyone liked their gifts from Aunt Nicky :) I tried to do my best but it is really hard to get things when the family is so spread apart.
I am being honest, this Christmas was really hard for me. Since I was alone, it was hard. Last weekend, I did have a breakdown and I cried to dad. I really wanted to go home or at least be with mom and dad. But with this weather, I completely understand. We didn't wake up to any new snow but down in Emery they did. It has been blowing really hard all day and the storm is coming in. My new coat is working great!:) I really appreciate the Gales letting me spend christmas morning with them. I even took my nap there and I loved having Koy come and cuddle with me and he ended up falling asleep with me (I love having my little snuggle-muffin by me sleeping). I have been really emotional this christmas so all the gifts helped out knowing that people care about me. I didn't like working on Christmas Eve.
I am glad I was able to talk to all the kids today! Knowing they are happy makes me so happy! I love them all so much! I miss all of you so much!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
What a week!!!
The past week has been a roller coaster!
I started getting a cold the weekend of OV days. Not sure if it was because of the cold weather, but it started out with a massive migraine! I thought it was just a headache. Then the next day I started getting really congested and then it just spiraled downhill from that. I got the yucky sore throat and nasty conjestion. I went to the Dr (Carol Cheney, she is a Nurse Practitioner) that I go to up here in Salt Lake at the Holladay Family Practice, she is the only I trust at that place!! She was sure I was getting something in my throat because it was BRIGHT red, but of course, NOTHING! I have gone through 6 boxes of tissues and my nose hurts so bad! 3 boxes are the rough tissues from work that feel like sandpaper. I started feeling better, then it started up again.. People at Myriad kept asking me why I went into work yesterday, as soon as 3:30 came, I was out the door! I slept as soon as I got home. I worked 4 hours today because I just feel so awful! I hope this cold goes away soon! I can't handle it anymore! I just cough all the time. I am at least not conjested, it is a runny nose now and I am coughing. So at least it is loose. But the coughing just hurts so bad. It makes me get a really bad headache and it hurts my chest. But I know that I am on the mend of it... so hopefully soon... :)
Friday a co-worker passed away unexpected. That has been so hard on me! She was at work and did her full 8 hours of work on Thursday. I am still in the shock stage. Kitty was such a great friend. Just shocking and really hard to grasp. Her viewing was Tuesday and it was so hard to go to but it wasn't her. That is really hard for me to go to see the body and the body looks NOTHING like them. Lately the grieving is starting to set in with me. I met with my therapist today about it and it was really good meeting. He is FABULOUS!
Monday, I had to buy a new tire. Of course, I had a flat tire! I am KNOWN for getting flats! Well, I had to buy a new one! What a great way to start the week out!
Yesterday, Dad had his knee replaced. I heard the nurses didn't take good care of him at Castleview Hospital and that really makes me mad! He got sick and he didn't even have a pink tub to throw up in. So thank goodness we had our dear Tiffany (Tyler Jeff's wife) to get things going. My mom said that dad was just miserable. And of course, they ended up having the same nurses TONIGHT! I wish I was there to take care of my dad.
I can't wait to get Tammy and Josh to move up here! They will just be around the corner from me! AND, next week, me and Tammy are going to the Tim McGraw concert. So maybe that will help me relieve stress. My Therapist says that I do suffer from anxiety and a lot of things have made me stressed out lately.. So having family around will help that I think.
I am really looking forward to this weekend where I can just relax. Last weekend I had to work on Saturday. I am going to help out the Friday late shift, but Saturday, I am going to do nothing but relax!
Other then that... I hope the rollercoaster is over the loop-de-loops and is starting to come to the straight path to slow down! :) I am tired of the big roller coasters. I'm ready for the little fun rides, like bumper cars or the carousel.. Where it is steady at one pace and actually kinda boring. :)
I'll be better at writing I promise. THis past week has really got to me with emotions. It has also really got me thinking a lot about death. You never know when it is your time. Kitty's family is going through much. I don't know what I would do if that happened to someone in my family. Kitty was younger then my parents. That is where it is so hard on me. I don't know what I would do if I lost a parent like that. Just one day they went to bed and didn't wake up. I love my family so much! I hope everyone in my family knows that I do love them. I want my nieces and nephews to know that Aunt Nicky loves them. With everything I have had to go through the past week, I want to make sure that they know EVERYDAY that I love them. I want my own sisters and brothers to know, not only my blood family but my brother in laws and my sister in law, I want you all to know that I love you. I love you guys all so much. With things that I have seen on the news and seen just here in my life... Things change SOO fast. I look up to you guys so much! You are my family, you are my heros. You have done so many things that I could never do. You are wonderful..
Mom and dad.. Please take care of yourself! I don't want to lose my parents at such an early age! Yes, you are young! :) you can frame that, I said you were young!! :) I love my family so much! I want everyone to know that! I want to yell it on the mountaintops so EVERYONE can hear. I am proud of my family and proud of the family I come from! :)
I started getting a cold the weekend of OV days. Not sure if it was because of the cold weather, but it started out with a massive migraine! I thought it was just a headache. Then the next day I started getting really congested and then it just spiraled downhill from that. I got the yucky sore throat and nasty conjestion. I went to the Dr (Carol Cheney, she is a Nurse Practitioner) that I go to up here in Salt Lake at the Holladay Family Practice, she is the only I trust at that place!! She was sure I was getting something in my throat because it was BRIGHT red, but of course, NOTHING! I have gone through 6 boxes of tissues and my nose hurts so bad! 3 boxes are the rough tissues from work that feel like sandpaper. I started feeling better, then it started up again.. People at Myriad kept asking me why I went into work yesterday, as soon as 3:30 came, I was out the door! I slept as soon as I got home. I worked 4 hours today because I just feel so awful! I hope this cold goes away soon! I can't handle it anymore! I just cough all the time. I am at least not conjested, it is a runny nose now and I am coughing. So at least it is loose. But the coughing just hurts so bad. It makes me get a really bad headache and it hurts my chest. But I know that I am on the mend of it... so hopefully soon... :)
Friday a co-worker passed away unexpected. That has been so hard on me! She was at work and did her full 8 hours of work on Thursday. I am still in the shock stage. Kitty was such a great friend. Just shocking and really hard to grasp. Her viewing was Tuesday and it was so hard to go to but it wasn't her. That is really hard for me to go to see the body and the body looks NOTHING like them. Lately the grieving is starting to set in with me. I met with my therapist today about it and it was really good meeting. He is FABULOUS!
Monday, I had to buy a new tire. Of course, I had a flat tire! I am KNOWN for getting flats! Well, I had to buy a new one! What a great way to start the week out!
Yesterday, Dad had his knee replaced. I heard the nurses didn't take good care of him at Castleview Hospital and that really makes me mad! He got sick and he didn't even have a pink tub to throw up in. So thank goodness we had our dear Tiffany (Tyler Jeff's wife) to get things going. My mom said that dad was just miserable. And of course, they ended up having the same nurses TONIGHT! I wish I was there to take care of my dad.
I can't wait to get Tammy and Josh to move up here! They will just be around the corner from me! AND, next week, me and Tammy are going to the Tim McGraw concert. So maybe that will help me relieve stress. My Therapist says that I do suffer from anxiety and a lot of things have made me stressed out lately.. So having family around will help that I think.
I am really looking forward to this weekend where I can just relax. Last weekend I had to work on Saturday. I am going to help out the Friday late shift, but Saturday, I am going to do nothing but relax!
Other then that... I hope the rollercoaster is over the loop-de-loops and is starting to come to the straight path to slow down! :) I am tired of the big roller coasters. I'm ready for the little fun rides, like bumper cars or the carousel.. Where it is steady at one pace and actually kinda boring. :)
I'll be better at writing I promise. THis past week has really got to me with emotions. It has also really got me thinking a lot about death. You never know when it is your time. Kitty's family is going through much. I don't know what I would do if that happened to someone in my family. Kitty was younger then my parents. That is where it is so hard on me. I don't know what I would do if I lost a parent like that. Just one day they went to bed and didn't wake up. I love my family so much! I hope everyone in my family knows that I do love them. I want my nieces and nephews to know that Aunt Nicky loves them. With everything I have had to go through the past week, I want to make sure that they know EVERYDAY that I love them. I want my own sisters and brothers to know, not only my blood family but my brother in laws and my sister in law, I want you all to know that I love you. I love you guys all so much. With things that I have seen on the news and seen just here in my life... Things change SOO fast. I look up to you guys so much! You are my family, you are my heros. You have done so many things that I could never do. You are wonderful..
Mom and dad.. Please take care of yourself! I don't want to lose my parents at such an early age! Yes, you are young! :) you can frame that, I said you were young!! :) I love my family so much! I want everyone to know that! I want to yell it on the mountaintops so EVERYONE can hear. I am proud of my family and proud of the family I come from! :)
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