Tuesday, March 11, 2008

MY venting session

Many thoughts have gone into this post and I am just going to say it... I am sorry if I offend anyone!

I have my own problems right now that I am trying to deal with. I don't want to be the middle man of other peoples problems. I have tried to be there for SO many people, yet sometimes I feel like I when I need someone to lean on, nobody is there for me.

I don't want to be a babysitter for people when they are supposed to be adults. If you can take care of yourself, SHOW IT! I am tired of picking up after people! I tried to be an adult and bring something to your attention and all that I get is a slap in the face and disrespected. I try to give people respect, but respect is earned not just given.

I know that I haven't been feeling all that well the past few months (2 months). I am away from my family. I haven't been getting a whole lot of sleep. I am trying to give my body the rest that is deserves and that it needs to heal from the illness that it has had. WHATEVER this has been (besides strep throat and ear infections) has really just put a lot of wear and tear on my body and really just wore my body completely out! I just want people to understand that I am trying! I am trying as much as I can to do the best I can!

I know that everyone is not perfect.. I am not saying that I am perfect in ANY shape or form (believe me, I know I am far from it). There are just times that I want the friendship, respect and trust that I give others.

Treat others as you want them to treat you because what goes around comes around

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Quick Update

Just a quick update before I head off to bed...

I am feeling SOO much better. That penicillin must have been what my body needed to get that infection out, because a few days after I started taking it I felt so much better. I still had the ear pain so I went back to the dr (what do dr's know anyway :) ) and he said that because I have been congested for so long, he thinks that it has backed up from my sinuses and went into my eustachian tube and that is why my ears have been in so much pain.. So once again, had me pick up Mucinex. So, I have been on MucinexD for almost 2 months (I don't know if that is healthy for you!). BUT, I have been feeling TONS better. He said if that doesn't clear it up, I may need to go to an ENT to get it checked out because that is something that a family dr can not see. Also, since I have been on antibiotics on and off for 2 months, it has caused a lot of wear and tear on my body. So I will be going to a gastroenterologist this Monday, March 10. I will spare the details on here! :) If you wanna know what is going on, ask me personally! But it has been enough to scare me enough to WANT to go to a specialist.

I applied for 1 of the 2 Data Entry Superviser positions at my work at Myriad. Unfortunately, I did not get the position. That has been really hard for me. Things came round about the wrong way and I was not even considered for the job. So that made it even harder. So I will just work harder so I get a good raise and raise time (July). I am also starting to look for a part time job to occupy my afternoon time. Since I did not get that position, I have been really depressed. In the Myriad HR policy handbook it says that to be offered a promotion, you have to be at Myriad for at least 12 months and they gave 1 of the positions to a person who has been there only for 4 months. So I am trying my hardest to keep an upbeat spirit about it, but it is hard. I am not holding any hard feelings toward this person at all, just the whole situation is hard for me to handle.

Other then that, everything is going fine. It is nice not to be so sick! I was starting to forget what it was like to not have ear or throat pain! I will try to be better at keeping up with this.

Well, I better head off to bed.. I can feel my medicine is kicking in so if none of this makes sense, lol, blame it on that! :)

Good night! Love you guys!!
Love,
Aunt Nicky