Time for an update

Everything at work has been good. I go to my Neurologist on Tuesday for a checkup. I have been out of my meds for about a week. I take migraine preventative pills. And once I ran out, they wouldn't refill them until I come in to meet with the dr again. I can see how much those pills make my head feel so much better. Having a migraine every day for the past week has not been fun.

Other then that, nothing else is going on. I got to spend time with my friend Abe, he FINALLY came back from Senegal,West Africa. It was good to have him back. Now it's my turn to go to Senegal. That would be my dream vacation is to go to africa.

It's February, Valentines Day. At work we decorated everyone's cubicle. It was so much fun. We drew names and had to decorate that persons cubie. My teams area looks all festive for V-day. We are having a Mardi Gras potluck in the 16th. My boss is in charge of it so she said everyone on my team has to bring something. Any ideas would be great!

Super Bowl was just played. I was cheering for the Colts. (Go Francisco!) but they didn't win. It was a good game anyway. New Orleans played hard and they deserve it.

Well, I am going to bed now. I will try to keep this updated weekly.. even if my life is boring :)

Oh, something that happened this week.... I got a ticket... Yes, I was speeding.

I CAN'T HANDLE IT!!!!

I know I will probably offend someone but this is my blog. If you don't like it, then don't read it! And just remember I can delete the comments on here! :) I can't handle when people come down on me saying that I am hypocritical and selfish. There as been so much in my life that I have just come to the point as "NICKY, BE SELFISH! DO SOMETHING FOR YOU!" My family does mean a lot to me, but that doesn't mean I have to do EVERYTHING for them. I may not be married with kids, but I do have my own life. And yes, sometimes I just want to sit at home! I don't think that's too much to ask for. I am just tired of the D*R*A*M*A!!!!





Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.

Happy Birthday

Just wanted to make a quick post to tell my brother in law Dallas Happy Birthday. Hope you have a great day!

Challenge is..........

I have set up the other blog for the family. I am just needing the email addresses to add to the account. I set up a blog for my family to write memories of Grandpa so we can keep his legacy going. I hope the family takes me up on the challenge and does participate with the blog. I think it will be fun to keep up on the family blog.

New Year... New Beginnings

It is a new year and a new beginning for me.

I moved into a new apartment middle of December. It is a one 1 bedroom apartment, just for me. I am loving it! It is nice knowing that the mess I am cleaning up is MY mess. I found a really nice deal on this apartment and I couldn't pass it up and it just seemed right to move at the time. I looked at the place on a Friday night, thought and prayed about it over the weekend and I think it was by Tuesday the papers were signed and I was in that weekend. I was blessed to have people from the family ward where I used to live come and help move my stuff. I was all moved in in about 2 hours.

I have had a hard time since Grandpa died. I have had a lot of regrets. I should've called him more, seen him more, etc. I don't think I tell my family enough how much they mean to me. I hope they KNOW how much they mean to me. But I know I don't tell them or show them the way I should. I talked to Grandma this past Sunday before I went to church (yes, I went to church) and it was really good for me. I told Grandma how I much I miss Grandpa and how I do regret not calling him more. Grandma said that Grandpa doesn't want me to feel that way. He loved me so much and he was so proud of all his grandkids. I know Grandpa was proud. Grandma said that as grandkids, we have a lot of good memories of Grandpa and we need to remember those. She challenged me to write those memories down and to always look back at them. Not a day goes by that I don't think of Grandpa. I don't know who out of my cousins/family read this, but I want to pass that challenge on to the rest of my family.

I want to let my family know how much they mean to me. They have been a great support to me. I know that since I am the youngest, I can be a brat.. I admit that... But, I am going to work on that. I want Barrett, Tammy and Nancy to know and to pass on to their kids how much I love each of them. I know I show it differently but I want the kids to know that each one means so much to me and they mean something different. Each kid has their own personality and each has their own need and I am going to try to help them with that need. Please be patient with me. If I am showing it wrong, please let me know but please understand I am very sensitive and I am a Ware girl and I cry! :)

I will be better at posting on this, not just on birthdays! :)

Happy Birthday M-A-X

What an eventful December I've had. I am posting this a day early because I want to make sure it is up for his birthday.

Barrett and his family were able to fly in for Grandpa's funeral last week and they flew back to Kansas City today. When me and Dad picked them up from the airport, Max told us how he had his birthday at Miss Kaffee's. Chantel said that Max has said he's already had his birthday.

I was on the ball and sent his birthday present early so they got it before they came out here to Utah. When I asked him what his favorite animal was, he said "hippopotamus" in his cute little voice with the lisp. I said, "well out of a dog and a bear, what is it" he said a BLUE DOG. Well Build-A-Bear didn't have a BLUE DOG, so he got a dog that I conveniently name Blue.

On Christmas Day, we met at Nancy's and had a little family Christmas party and a little birthday party for Max. I had asked Max what he wanted on a birthday cake and he said he wanted a "DINO CAKE" so I went to Smith's and ordered a cake. It turned out so cute! Except it had these little brown spots on the cake, I'm not sure if they were supposed to be rocks.. But once Max saw them, he started singing "every dinosaur poops" and that is exactly what I thought!

Max looked so handsome at Grandpa's funeral, flash back to when Barrett was little. In his cute little suit. I just love him! He is so cute with his big blue eyes.. Just another little Labrum who got Grandpa's eyes! :)

I hope he has had MANY fun birthdays this year. Not many people get to have about 15 parties! :) I love you Max!

Christmas Season

As the Christmas season is here, I look back and think of everything that has happened this year. Especially over the past month and the events that have happened.

This past Friday, my Grandpa Rue passed away. I got the phone call at work and it totally took me by surprise. I was soon surrounded by my coworkers showing their love and support. I knew I had to be with my family at that time. I left work and talked to my cousin Mitch and met right off the freeway in Salt Lake and traveled to Orangeville. The family was at Grandpa's house making plans. Saturday we went to the funeral home and talked about memories of grandpa and then to the floral and made floral arrangements. The arrangements were PERFECT for Grandpa.

The viewing was Monday and the funeral was Tuesday. The family met before the viewing and shared memories of Grandpa. All the grandchildren had the memories of Grandpa of Christmas. It just seems that it was the perfect time for Grandpa, he loved Christmas!

The funeral was PERFECT! Everything turned out just right. The burial was cold and snowy but couldn't have been better. Since Grandpa had been in the Air Force, he had the American Legion there. It was so cold, the little old men seemed to be frozen there. But it was beautiful having the snow fall all around.

As I sit here on Christmas Eve day, I just think about the memories I have of how it was growing up. Every Christmas Eve night, we would go to Grandpa's house and have dinner and we would get our pajamas. We would know what we were getting but that was okay! Grandpa would have us listen to the books "The Gift of the Magi" and "Twas the Night Before Christmas" before we could open up our presents from him and Grandma. I don't remember what "The Gift of the Magi" was about, I just remember sitting there wanting to open up that present. Once we opened it, we all had to go put them on. We would walk out in the living room and once everyone was there, we had pictures. So many years of pictures of our pajamas!

I love my Grandpa and I will miss him so much! He has taught me so much. He taught the grandkids to show respect. Be PROUD of where you are from! I hold my head proud because I am from Orangeville! He will be missed.