What a week!!!

The past week has been a roller coaster!

I started getting a cold the weekend of OV days. Not sure if it was because of the cold weather, but it started out with a massive migraine! I thought it was just a headache. Then the next day I started getting really congested and then it just spiraled downhill from that. I got the yucky sore throat and nasty conjestion. I went to the Dr (Carol Cheney, she is a Nurse Practitioner) that I go to up here in Salt Lake at the Holladay Family Practice, she is the only I trust at that place!! She was sure I was getting something in my throat because it was BRIGHT red, but of course, NOTHING! I have gone through 6 boxes of tissues and my nose hurts so bad! 3 boxes are the rough tissues from work that feel like sandpaper. I started feeling better, then it started up again.. People at Myriad kept asking me why I went into work yesterday, as soon as 3:30 came, I was out the door! I slept as soon as I got home. I worked 4 hours today because I just feel so awful! I hope this cold goes away soon! I can't handle it anymore! I just cough all the time. I am at least not conjested, it is a runny nose now and I am coughing. So at least it is loose. But the coughing just hurts so bad. It makes me get a really bad headache and it hurts my chest. But I know that I am on the mend of it... so hopefully soon... :)

Friday a co-worker passed away unexpected. That has been so hard on me! She was at work and did her full 8 hours of work on Thursday. I am still in the shock stage. Kitty was such a great friend. Just shocking and really hard to grasp. Her viewing was Tuesday and it was so hard to go to but it wasn't her. That is really hard for me to go to see the body and the body looks NOTHING like them. Lately the grieving is starting to set in with me. I met with my therapist today about it and it was really good meeting. He is FABULOUS!

Monday, I had to buy a new tire. Of course, I had a flat tire! I am KNOWN for getting flats! Well, I had to buy a new one! What a great way to start the week out!

Yesterday, Dad had his knee replaced. I heard the nurses didn't take good care of him at Castleview Hospital and that really makes me mad! He got sick and he didn't even have a pink tub to throw up in. So thank goodness we had our dear Tiffany (Tyler Jeff's wife) to get things going. My mom said that dad was just miserable. And of course, they ended up having the same nurses TONIGHT! I wish I was there to take care of my dad.

I can't wait to get Tammy and Josh to move up here! They will just be around the corner from me! AND, next week, me and Tammy are going to the Tim McGraw concert. So maybe that will help me relieve stress. My Therapist says that I do suffer from anxiety and a lot of things have made me stressed out lately.. So having family around will help that I think.

I am really looking forward to this weekend where I can just relax. Last weekend I had to work on Saturday. I am going to help out the Friday late shift, but Saturday, I am going to do nothing but relax!

Other then that... I hope the rollercoaster is over the loop-de-loops and is starting to come to the straight path to slow down! :) I am tired of the big roller coasters. I'm ready for the little fun rides, like bumper cars or the carousel.. Where it is steady at one pace and actually kinda boring. :)

I'll be better at writing I promise. THis past week has really got to me with emotions. It has also really got me thinking a lot about death. You never know when it is your time. Kitty's family is going through much. I don't know what I would do if that happened to someone in my family. Kitty was younger then my parents. That is where it is so hard on me. I don't know what I would do if I lost a parent like that. Just one day they went to bed and didn't wake up. I love my family so much! I hope everyone in my family knows that I do love them. I want my nieces and nephews to know that Aunt Nicky loves them. With everything I have had to go through the past week, I want to make sure that they know EVERYDAY that I love them. I want my own sisters and brothers to know, not only my blood family but my brother in laws and my sister in law, I want you all to know that I love you. I love you guys all so much. With things that I have seen on the news and seen just here in my life... Things change SOO fast. I look up to you guys so much! You are my family, you are my heros. You have done so many things that I could never do. You are wonderful..
Mom and dad.. Please take care of yourself! I don't want to lose my parents at such an early age! Yes, you are young! :) you can frame that, I said you were young!! :) I love my family so much! I want everyone to know that! I want to yell it on the mountaintops so EVERYONE can hear. I am proud of my family and proud of the family I come from! :)

Parting is such sweet sorrow (or so they say)

I have been having a really emotional time the past few weeks, so this just didn't help!

So today I had to say goodbye to Barrett and the kids (Chantel was up painting). It was SOOO hard! Chantel, I hope you have a good trip and I can't wait to come visit! Get that room ready for me to come visit and we will HAVE to have a girls weekend! I was able to compose myself while they were there. But as soon as they left, I cried!! It is really hard to hold back the tears when a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old run and give you a hug and you know this is the last time you will give them a hug for a while. Morgan gave me a HUGE hug and kiss and I didn't want to let her go! She was right there to tell me "Nicky, you can come visit us in an airplane!" And Max tried to tell me to come in an airplane, instead he just ran around in a circle as an airplane. I got some cute pictures with me and the kids, I will put them up when I download them. And sure enough, I had Max turn red with the kisses! :) That boy can NEVER get away from his Aunt Nicky when it comes to him turning down my kisses!

I hate having to say goodbye to my family. I hated having to say goodbye to Tyler, I cried so hard when I had to drop them off at the airport. I had to get out of the airport as fast as I could because that was so hard for me. And now I had to say goodbye to MORE of my family. So being able to see him this next week is SOO exciting for me!!! But I am not looking forward to saying goodbye to him!

I know Tammy and Josh are planning on moving up here and it couldn't come any faster! When I left my parents this past weekend, saying goodbye to the kids down there was so hard. Koy was determined that he was coming with me. He was telling Lexi bye and giving her kisses, and it broke my heart to tell him that he wasn't come with me.

I have had a lot more that I have had to emotionally have to deal with. It has been so hard for me! The Ware in me, has started to come out :) But I think I am getting it all under control.

Barrett, Chantel and the kids.. GOOD LUCK IN KANSAS CITY!! I will miss you guys!!