New Year... New Beginnings

It is a new year and a new beginning for me.

I moved into a new apartment middle of December. It is a one 1 bedroom apartment, just for me. I am loving it! It is nice knowing that the mess I am cleaning up is MY mess. I found a really nice deal on this apartment and I couldn't pass it up and it just seemed right to move at the time. I looked at the place on a Friday night, thought and prayed about it over the weekend and I think it was by Tuesday the papers were signed and I was in that weekend. I was blessed to have people from the family ward where I used to live come and help move my stuff. I was all moved in in about 2 hours.

I have had a hard time since Grandpa died. I have had a lot of regrets. I should've called him more, seen him more, etc. I don't think I tell my family enough how much they mean to me. I hope they KNOW how much they mean to me. But I know I don't tell them or show them the way I should. I talked to Grandma this past Sunday before I went to church (yes, I went to church) and it was really good for me. I told Grandma how I much I miss Grandpa and how I do regret not calling him more. Grandma said that Grandpa doesn't want me to feel that way. He loved me so much and he was so proud of all his grandkids. I know Grandpa was proud. Grandma said that as grandkids, we have a lot of good memories of Grandpa and we need to remember those. She challenged me to write those memories down and to always look back at them. Not a day goes by that I don't think of Grandpa. I don't know who out of my cousins/family read this, but I want to pass that challenge on to the rest of my family.

I want to let my family know how much they mean to me. They have been a great support to me. I know that since I am the youngest, I can be a brat.. I admit that... But, I am going to work on that. I want Barrett, Tammy and Nancy to know and to pass on to their kids how much I love each of them. I know I show it differently but I want the kids to know that each one means so much to me and they mean something different. Each kid has their own personality and each has their own need and I am going to try to help them with that need. Please be patient with me. If I am showing it wrong, please let me know but please understand I am very sensitive and I am a Ware girl and I cry! :)

I will be better at posting on this, not just on birthdays! :)